I’m always looking for new ways to enrich my experiences so keep a look out- cause this girl is busy. Staining, creating, planning, drawing- and most importantly, dreaming.
Don’t lose sight of who you are as an artist- you have your own unique talent that no one else possesses.
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I've always been told that I could never accomplish certain things in life. The true revelation that I've experienced from all of this 'abandoning my conventional life' and facing my demons has brought on a whole new level of emotional freedom I've never experienced in my whole life. I am not religious, but now that I've come to losing all these things that all of us deem necessary has freed me from the constraints of normal thinking.
However, all things are easier said than done. Triggers are always there, which is just fear. I must learn to smile and greet my enemy (or which at some point I contrived to be my enemy). It's melting away slowly, the more I affirm positive thoughts, sayings and treat people kindly, things have been much more therapeutic to say the least.
The point of my rant is that we are what we think. Our thoughts become our actions. Be kind people.
Peace and Hugs
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-Gautama Buddha
]]>I didn't seem to fit in any box, anywhere. And then I finally figured it out, like an epiphany of monumental proportions. I am what I am, and I make no promises or seek to fill a role that society wants me to fit in. I am a living breathing being meant to experience life.
I spent so much time , wasted time suffering because I was trying to be something that was never intended for me to be in the first place. I guess my point in all of this rant, is that no matter how many times you keep falling down- keep the faith in yourself- you will find peace within if that is truly what you desire. Let go of your expectations of what others think. Turn off your inner monologue and start living with what is right in front of you.
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I had been stuck in the same government job for 15 years respectively, and I really got tired of living my life in a box where I was meant to be put, somewhere to a place where all of your hopes and dreams get leeched right out of you.
The thought that we have to work at a job we hate for 40 years of our life is absolutely insane to me. But, when I thought of breaking the mold myself, and leaving that 'secure' job, feelings of anxiety, worthlessness and depression overwhelmed me. I couldn't take it anymore, I literally felt as if my mind and my body were being ripped at the seams. In an act of compulsivity and desperation for change, I left the job and the people that had been exacerbating this issue and life has gotten interesting again. Is it easy? Nothing good ever really comes easy, but rather comes in forms of lessons over the span of our lives.
So, here I am. Creating, living, breathing and learning everyday in hopes of becoming a better human being and being able to love myself again.
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