There's a lot of uncertainty when you basically uproot your entire life and decide to live against the grain of society. I have learned over the years that what we perceive to our ultimate goal in life is to be happy be obtaining things of material and receiving status praise by the columns that society has set us all up for. What box will you fit in?
I didn't seem to fit in any box, anywhere. And then I finally figured it out, like an epiphany of monumental proportions. I am what I am, and I make no promises or seek to fill a role that society wants me to fit in. I am a living breathing being meant to experience life.
I spent so much time , wasted time suffering because I was trying to be something that was never intended for me to be in the first place. I guess my point in all of this rant, is that no matter how many times you keep falling down- keep the faith in yourself- you will find peace within if that is truly what you desire. Let go of your expectations of what others think. Turn off your inner monologue and start living with what is right in front of you.